A good day? Not!

Today I spent the whole day doing nothing besides the dishes and cleaning the vacuum! Pathetic? Yes! I also organized my photos on the computer - at least I tried. I had a headache today. Not sure why. Mom should be here tomorrow to spend some time. Hopefully I'll feel better then. I don't care if I ever go ANYWHERE ever again. My life is pathetic. I have no goals. I have little desire for anything. Not a good day.

D and A

Well, it's Monday morning. I'm tired and feeling very down today. I can't bring myself to go to my appt. with the Sr. today. I had better call and cancel. I haven't left the house but once in over a week and that was only a mile down the road! I know I have to get past this, but I just can't today. And Chuck actually picked up in the livingroom this morning. Kind of made me feel like I need to do more. And I do. Not that it was messy...just a few things still lingering from 'the little tornado' being here the other day! Depression and Anxiety are my enemies today. Not sure why.

She loves Elmo!

My reason for getting through day by day.

where I'm at...

Stress of the day. My brother wants to invest our monies into a 'fore sure' thing. I do not want to be a part of it. Sorry, I can't get on board. Mom is staying a few more days due to the snow storm down south. I set out some treats for a mouse I suspected was looking for a new home. He says 'Thank you". Now I can't wait to smell his decaying body in the next few days.
I managed to eat a lot of dark chocolate M&M's, two Diet Pepsis, a cup of coffee and some cheese sticks. I worked in the basement and put up the rest of the insulation that I had left over. Then I caulked and spray foamed some areas and carpeted Allie's little kitchen area. It looks warm and feels cozy. Then I worked on an air return duct. All in all, satisfying day. Took a long hot bath and shaved my legs and pits which desperately  needed it.
Tomorrow I have an appt in GR...I do NOT want to go (as usual) I hate spending the money and I just don't feel like I'm making progress.

First Entry

This morning, I thought "wouldn't it be great to write down my thoughts and feelings in order to see who I really am and what I REALLY think". Right now, I feel like those damn squirrels in my walls - confused why the lady won't quit beating on the walls to my house! Someone should trap me...cage me...and rehabilitate me. But really, I'm the only one who can rehabilitate me. So, perhaps this is a way to help myself. A way I can see myself. A way I can find hope in my life.
Today, while watching "CBS Sunday Morning Show", I found very drawn to David Sedaris and his humor. I want to read his books! That is one of my goals this week - to find one of his books and read it.